Paralyzing creativity

I like to be creative. I enjoy writing, drawing, painting, cross-stitch, crochet, singing, etc. Sometimes I have art block and can't think of anything worthwhile to do with my creative urges. Sometimes I have no problem at all and am able to express myself exactly the way I want to. But a majority of the time I have what I like to call paralyzing creativity.

For me paralyzing creativity is an overwhelming amount of ideas that cause me to shut down. I don't know which idea to pursue first or how to execute my idea into the vision I desire. It is extremely frustrating. Yet I realize that much of this is a state of my mind that I should be able to control. I haven't yet figured out how to control this, but I have started to make an effort.

Recently I have forced myself to take an idea that I have and work with it, whether I like it or am comfortable with it or not. I have actually put out some work. But I am not really happy with the results; I am just okay with them. I have decided to keep up with this plan for now since I am actually getting some results and am learning some new things too.

But deep down I want to have a fabulous idea that I love and follow through with it until my vision is realized.

Welcome to your doom!

This is my first blog and my first blog entry. Recently I have just felt like writing about my life and thoughts. I used to keep a journal but that idea doesn't appeal to me right now, so I thought I would take the plunge and try blogging.

I am a Catholic woman in my late 30's who lives in Illinois. I am divorced but engaged to be married. I have a son aged 20 who has Asperger's and a daughter aged 17 who has autism, mild mental retardation, and anxiety problems. Although I am an RN I am unable to work currently due to chronic migraine headaches.

I enjoy many things in life such as drawing, painting, watching TV and movies, playing video games, listening to audio books, podcasts, and music, crocheting, reading, watching anime, praying and studying more about my faith, and much more.

Because I have so many interests I have decided that this blog will include all my varied interests and not be focused on any one topic. Therefore, if you find one post's topic interesting the next may totally surprise and/or repulse you. Hopefully I will quickly learn the ins and outs of having a blog.

Thanks for reading!